Extras from the Gutter

i dont want to talk about it

So I’ve been thinking about this since I got laid off… Christopher, you must be sort of giggling in your sick way that a few months later, after you died, I ended up laid off too. And then your birthday passed and you got out of turning 30 and I won’t. I am for the first time since I met you, older than you are. That’s weird to me.

I miss you. You might be one of the very few people who would understand what this nothing is like and I can’t ask you to give me advice.